I have other posts written in the series I promised which will come out soon.. but Chaos and Nemesis got me again! Thereby keeping me doing other things than the scheduled writing. Those demons love this playground. It must be the abundance of evil plans and accomplishments.
I have defeated them, for the time being, and explained I have no time for their shenanigans. Yet I know that they will be back regardless.
This business with sending Gremlins into my vehicle was extremely aggravating BUT I will thank the demi-gods for the lesson learned by someone else.
Yes it's true. I was used! The incident was not a game played with me but through me. Sheesh. I am sure that it was necessary, as my anxiety and tears prompted the necessary change. Even further the change is also making other realizations sink in. I will benefit from this breakthrough in the long run. Once things calm down a bit more. For that I am grateful.
And Yet....
I still feel a bit violated. Even when the end result is positive (ish) and more growth is on its way... I can't shake the icky feeling of being the pot in which this stew was mixed. I will get over it I am sure. Especially when the trips to the fuel pump are further apart. The children being seated further apart will help as well.
Right now... I just need another shower.
Showing posts with label chaos. Show all posts
Showing posts with label chaos. Show all posts
Friday, March 18, 2011
Monday, December 20, 2010
Nemesis and Chaos strike again!
I bet you all thought that Trickster Time was my nemesis. This, however, is not true. Life has had so many bumps, traps and holes for me that I believe that Nemesis and Chaos are a tag team that dog my every crossroad. I am just not sure how I should take this.
Most religious and spiritual paths believe that trials and tribulations are necessary to get us where we need to be. That these obstacles will help shape a person's spirit and personality.
Personally, I think that there may be some intent, but I also believe that Chaos just likes getting into mischief with his good buddy Nemesis.
Right now I've had a series of these 'character building' events happen. Up to and including my vehicle being out of commission. This is the most severe of all the obstacles as this is how I get to and from work as well as get errands done for the family. One of those errands is paying the bills. Another is picking up the gifts for this holiday. Not usually a procrastinator with gift buying, I did need to wait until after payday this time around. Oh! We need to add cashing that check to this list of errands. I sure am envying the snow birds and their golf carts right now.
Chaos of course not to be undone by Nemesis' sly work with the 4runner decided that the troupe performance this weekend needed more excitement. Two dancers fall ill, that was half the show, and the organizer didn't organize. With only two dancers to do a four dancer piece and then a third joining in after not even hearing the music until 2 hours before the performance we were already nervous. The addition of the set list not being with the master cd for the show AND the gal with the set list being 25 minutes late. Woo Hoo! Chaos was having a grand time. We did show Chaos that while he could mock and make it difficult he did not win completely. We went on and while we didn't knock it out of the park we performed well. And really if you think about it we had the coolest music. Christmas Carols done with drums and an Oud!
Out of this I have learned that I have at least one more friend that I can count on in times of crisis. It is also making the fire under me burn a little hotter for getting some query letters out soon. Which means I need to spend more time writing in order to have something to shop.
And this is when Time steps in for a little mischief of his own. Projects that should only take a few minutes take hours. Because, of course, Time is not working alone. Nemesis made sure that my printer ink cartridges were clogged so that Time could chuckle whilst I spent almost two hours hitting deep clean and nozzle check. After all this time was spent, Nemesis was in for a treat as the cartridges became unclogged the ink was showing close to empty. Therefore a quick print project, (the document was already previously written and saved), turned into a long waste of my time. The boys got their kicks alright.
Here I sit once again the butt of their jokes, a piece (I am never a pawn) in the game that they like to play. Where will we go next and what ultimately is the purpose?
In my opinion it is just Life's way of giving me true competition. Mortals are just too easy to overwhelm.
Most religious and spiritual paths believe that trials and tribulations are necessary to get us where we need to be. That these obstacles will help shape a person's spirit and personality.
Personally, I think that there may be some intent, but I also believe that Chaos just likes getting into mischief with his good buddy Nemesis.
Right now I've had a series of these 'character building' events happen. Up to and including my vehicle being out of commission. This is the most severe of all the obstacles as this is how I get to and from work as well as get errands done for the family. One of those errands is paying the bills. Another is picking up the gifts for this holiday. Not usually a procrastinator with gift buying, I did need to wait until after payday this time around. Oh! We need to add cashing that check to this list of errands. I sure am envying the snow birds and their golf carts right now.
Chaos of course not to be undone by Nemesis' sly work with the 4runner decided that the troupe performance this weekend needed more excitement. Two dancers fall ill, that was half the show, and the organizer didn't organize. With only two dancers to do a four dancer piece and then a third joining in after not even hearing the music until 2 hours before the performance we were already nervous. The addition of the set list not being with the master cd for the show AND the gal with the set list being 25 minutes late. Woo Hoo! Chaos was having a grand time. We did show Chaos that while he could mock and make it difficult he did not win completely. We went on and while we didn't knock it out of the park we performed well. And really if you think about it we had the coolest music. Christmas Carols done with drums and an Oud!
Out of this I have learned that I have at least one more friend that I can count on in times of crisis. It is also making the fire under me burn a little hotter for getting some query letters out soon. Which means I need to spend more time writing in order to have something to shop.
And this is when Time steps in for a little mischief of his own. Projects that should only take a few minutes take hours. Because, of course, Time is not working alone. Nemesis made sure that my printer ink cartridges were clogged so that Time could chuckle whilst I spent almost two hours hitting deep clean and nozzle check. After all this time was spent, Nemesis was in for a treat as the cartridges became unclogged the ink was showing close to empty. Therefore a quick print project, (the document was already previously written and saved), turned into a long waste of my time. The boys got their kicks alright.
Here I sit once again the butt of their jokes, a piece (I am never a pawn) in the game that they like to play. Where will we go next and what ultimately is the purpose?
In my opinion it is just Life's way of giving me true competition. Mortals are just too easy to overwhelm.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Trickster named Time
A friend of mine mentioned yesterday that time moves differently now then when we were children. Now with the hustle and bustle of our daily lives when we take time to do "nothing" time moves quickly. As children if there was nothing to do time would move so slowly as to be painful! Does this mean that "nothing" means something different to us now then it did then? Or is it something completely external with nothing to do with definitions.
I found this difference also applies to many parts of our lives. We think that a project will take X amount of time. However, sometimes we don't factor in the Y that can be anything from kids to forgotten errands. So the actual amount of time (Z) is of course more than we expected. Then again this happens with those projects that have a concrete deadline. For those projects that we have more flexible deadlines, half the time things work out so well that we find ourselves done with time to spare. What is frustrating is that both sets of projects do not happen within a time frame that allows the extra time from one to be applied to the other. Even more frustrating is that there isn't a formula or rule to let us know when these times will occur.
This makes me feel like Time itself is an entity related to Chaos and in league with Nemesis. It is obviously readjusting itself for entertainment purposes. I can truly see these Entities watching us and manipulating things just to see how we'll react. It's even possible that there is a constant betting pool going on about the outcomes. Although I am not sure who the bookie would be. The Fates?
In any case Time can be tricky and often frustrating. And for the moment I will not try to figure it out. But one of these days I will work on it. Or just write a story to shame that Trickster Time.
I found this difference also applies to many parts of our lives. We think that a project will take X amount of time. However, sometimes we don't factor in the Y that can be anything from kids to forgotten errands. So the actual amount of time (Z) is of course more than we expected. Then again this happens with those projects that have a concrete deadline. For those projects that we have more flexible deadlines, half the time things work out so well that we find ourselves done with time to spare. What is frustrating is that both sets of projects do not happen within a time frame that allows the extra time from one to be applied to the other. Even more frustrating is that there isn't a formula or rule to let us know when these times will occur.
This makes me feel like Time itself is an entity related to Chaos and in league with Nemesis. It is obviously readjusting itself for entertainment purposes. I can truly see these Entities watching us and manipulating things just to see how we'll react. It's even possible that there is a constant betting pool going on about the outcomes. Although I am not sure who the bookie would be. The Fates?
In any case Time can be tricky and often frustrating. And for the moment I will not try to figure it out. But one of these days I will work on it. Or just write a story to shame that Trickster Time.
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